Weird Dream

I dreamt that I was dead and I was playing a game that does not exist in reality...a version of Tron meets skateboarding. I knew some of the people I was playing with. At first I was unsure that I was dead and was really concerned that this "place" where I was could be heaven. The notion of an afterlife resonates with me, as it is how my early existential crises would come upon me....hoping and wishing that God would let me know that I was not alone in the universe. But here I was playing (it was a dark place, but so fascinating). The game we were playing required hand eye coordination beyond my own normal, klutzy skills. I was able to zoom everywhere on a hoverish skateboard, including almost to the pits of hell: the void below us. At one time we stopped playing the game to explore the space around us. One of the "lines" we traversed took us to a "nursery" where young toddlers were playing. They played in a fountain of glowing light. And there were caretakers there. I stopped one of the caretakers, who was trying to avoid me and asked who they were. Were they aliens? Have we died? The caretaker said they were an indescribable being that most closely correlated with the human definition of an angel (no wings, but a glow about them). Then I recognized a friend of mine, who said he had committed suicide. I felt such empathy for him and cried for him. And then I woke up. I was sweating from head to toe. My friend is still alive. I wonder what this could mean.